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Still Healing - A Sunday Poem

Still Healing – A Sunday Poem

The writer expresses a struggle with addiction, acknowledging repeated attempts to quit yet continually falling back into harmful patterns. They describe the growing pains associated with their struggles and reflect on past regrets, realizing that the cycle is bound to repeat itself, leading to a sense of inevitable relapse.

Willy Martinez
1–2 minutes
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As we dive into today’s poem, let’s talk about the power of healing. Whether it’s through the written word, art, or simply sharing our stories, healing is an essential part of our human experience. It’s messy, it’s painful, but it’s also transformative.

Still Healing

I'm at it again,
I wanna quit but I can't.
I can't even tell you
how many times now.
Yeah, I've had some time-outs,
but I never overcame the pains that
I hide from in plain sight.

The pains grow with 
each use, and the mantras
are just an excuse
to forgive myself for trying.
But I alwasy lose the grip
on my noose.

To get to the point where I say
"I've been here before."
Each time pushing further,
regreting and pausing to reflect
and say, 'never again.'
Knowing that it'll only be 
a matter of 'when?'

Cover Photo by Brittany Colette on Unsplash. Poem by Willy Martinez, Copyright to Mind on Fire Books 2023.

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4 responses to “Still Healing – A Sunday Poem”

  1. Sara Flower Kjeldsen Avatar
    Sara Flower Kjeldsen

    Wow this is a really raw poem. The title drew me in. The words are honest if not heart wrenching – success is usually preceded by failure.

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    1. Willy Martinez Avatar
      Willy Martinez

      Thank you for the kind words and support. This morning was rough and I was in my “feels” 😁

      Reply
      1. Sara Flower Kjeldsen Avatar
        Sara Flower Kjeldsen

        I could feel your feelings in that poem. I hope tonight and tomorrow morning will be much better!

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        1. Willy Martinez Avatar
          Willy Martinez

          🙏

          Reply

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